SCARLET

2012-01-21T22:46:00.001+08:00

Picnic with the best people alive. It has been a freaking long time since

we last had a decent outing together. Decided to go to West Coast park.

The weather was good till we heard thunders and we went off to find for a

shelter before it started to pour. It was quite a heavy downpour and despite

being wet even when we're under the shelter, we played charades. It was damn fun.

Goodnight everyone! :D

2012-01-20T23:51:00.000+08:00

I love Fridays because it's like I wake up in the morning and

travel all the way to school to catch a movie at 9 freaking AM in

the morning. I was being sarcastic anyway. But the good thing is that

class always end early. After movie only go home. Whipped something

up at home since I've got nothing to do.

Stuffed croissant with scrambled eggs and cheese.

Mini nutella brownie cupcakes.

Goodnight everyone (:

2012-01-19T19:13:00.000+08:00

Happy girl finally received my mod dress! :D

2012-01-18T20:56:00.001+08:00

So this is what you get when you have a pair of itchy hands.

Wanted to cut my fringe short, and since I was bored, I tried cutting

bangs. I regretted it so much. I looked and feel like a complete idiot.

Please grow faster dear fringe :(

2012-01-17T18:39:00.000+08:00

This is my fat Tuesday.

2012-01-15T23:56:00.002+08:00

Out with Dinni to Punggol Waterway. I was just curious to know what

is there. I want to see the lalang field. Regretted going there in the evening.

It was freaking hot, the sun really no mercy I swear. Thank god for car

and air-con. Was sweating like one mad dog. Bought some snacks/drinks

and watched Lagenda Budak Setan in the car till night. Met Wani & Irfan at

CCK and we went off to Yishun Waterfront. First time there and the place

is really beautiful. It's like Woodlands Waterfront.

Alright goodnight everyone (:

For once, class starts in the afternoon tomorrow.

2012-01-14T23:45:00.000+08:00

To the zoo with the HQ peeps! It has been years since I last went there.

The ticket is much expensive now. Had a great day at the zoo though it

was tiring with all the walking and the hot weather. After which, we headed

to Banquet @ Causeway Point to have dinner. Went back to CCK and played

ping pong before I head home.

Goodnight everyone (:

2012-01-13T23:49:00.000+08:00

That moment when someone just sat closer to you and gave you a long

hug without saying anything. I feel you. I know it sucks to be having a tiff,

and it sucks not talking to each other for the past few days. Yes I miss

you very much. I finally get to see you today and I'm more than happy.

2012-01-09T23:45:00.002+08:00

Out with Dinni to Marina Square's Manhattan Fish Market to have our

late lunch/early dinner. Since it's the last day offer for the 1-for-1 Fish & Cheese

thingy. Yumzxzzz it was nice!

2012-01-06T23:54:00.000+08:00

The most perfect cupcake I've ever tasted in my whole life. Serious.

I've never liked buying cupcakes outside. The price is usually unreasonable

and it doesn't taste that good anyway. So I passed by Delifrance and saw

this cupcake, Chocolate Dream, and gave it a try. It looks damn delicious,

and lucky enough it taste as good as it looks! The cake is moist inside and it

doesn't crumble when I bite into it. The chocolate frosting, perfect I swear.

Never tasted a frosting that perfect before. I think I wanna learn how to

make that chocolate frosting. I don't mind getting fat eating that everyday.

2012-01-05T23:12:00.000+08:00

Soldier boy POP already! I don't know why but I'm proud of him.

Went for his POP at Sembawang Camp together with his parents

in the evening. Freaking nervous to be with his parents alone I swear.

But everything was fine. I love the part where the recruits throw their

caps up in the air at the end of the parade. And how they celebrated

running around the parade square. The last time I went for POP was my

brother's one which was years ago. I don't remember when, but it was really

a good moment to see all of them so happy. After the parade, we

had dinner at Woodlands and headed home.

Cookies specially for the boy.

Goodnight everyone (:

2012-01-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

Was on Tumblr during class earlier today and I stumbled upon a

photo of M&M cookies. Since my class ended early today, I baked

some M&M cookies. It didn't turned out like how I thought it would be,

but as long as it tasted good. P/S: I suck so bad in baking cookies. I can never

keep the shapes of the cookies consistent. Ran out of M&M so I just decorate

the cookies with whatever that I can find in the fridge.

Alright goodnight everyone (:

2012-01-03T22:54:00.000+08:00

First day of school was a waste of my time I swear. I've seen this

coming already. Class was dismissed an hour earlier, which means I

went off at 11am. Waste of my time I tell you. It's like I wake up in the

morning, travel all the way to East side just to play Tetris. Zzzzzz.

Went home and met the guys in the evening for badminton.

2012-01-02T23:17:00.003+08:00

The aftermath of playing ping pong.

Had late lunch with Dinni and the guys at MacD. Proceeded to Keat Hong

area to play ping pong. First time trying out a new venue. The game

got more interesting and funny with more people joining in the game.

Hilarious I swear! Sadly the boy had to go off early since he has to book in.

Stayed with the rest for awhile and played a few more games before heading

home. Lucky I went home early cos my niece was at my crib.

Been weeks since I last saw her.

Sigh goddamn school reopens tomorrow. Not ready for it.

Morning classes EVERYDAY, can you imagine? Nope.

But looking on the bright side, I have only short hours in sch.

Alright then goodnight everyone (:

2012-01-01T23:41:00.001+08:00

Went over to the boy's place in the evening and cooked fish & chips

since he has been craving for it since his first bookout which was

weeks ago. Poor boy. After eating, went off to meet the rest to chill out

before heading home. Feeling damn lethargic right now, I should catch up on

my sleep. Goodnight everyone and Happy New Year! (:

2012-01-01T10:48:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year everyone!

~~2011~~ 2012.

So above is the our last photo before 2011 comes to an end. The first

time in my whole entire 19 years of living, celebrating countdown. To be

honest, it's just normal. Or maybe this is not my thing. Spent the day

helping Syafiq and his family move their stuff to their new house.

Headed to Woodlands Waterfront at night for countdown. I was surprised

to see the overwhelming crowd. That's my favourite place to chill alone.

The whole jetty area was filled with people, but we manage to go there

right before midnight to countdown to the new year. We watched

Malaysia's fireworks HAHAHAHA. There goes my birthday. Told ya it was

like any other Saturday. Haha serious, I'm not even like sad about it.

After watching the fireworks, we headed to CDANS and played 3 games

of bowling. I've never stayed out and play bowling before, so it was a

nice experience. Had our supper at Bukit Timah, chill out at CCK till the sun

rise. Got home at about 9am and surprisingly I'm feeling fresh now. Weird.

Brand new year, I hope to start afresh and forget the past. It's not gonna

be easy, but I'll try my very best so as not to hurt my present.

Hope you guys had a great New Year's eve/New Year! :D

2011-12-31T01:27:00.002+08:00

I turned 19 today. Like last year, nothing special about it.

Just a year older. Feels like any other Saturday. Doesn't feel like

a birthday nor New Year's eve at all. But anyways, I appreciate the birthday

wishes through calls/texts/Twitter/FB etc.

2011-12-30T23:53:00.001+08:00

It's the last Friday of the year!

Anyways, I got an offer for this Neutrogena wet demo don't know

what. I think it's for a commercial and I was shortlisted for casting. So I

went today with Shahied's company. The outfit I was asked to bring was

tanktop and beach shorts, but when I got there, they asked me to

change into a tube dress and shorts. So I changed into it (though it feels

uncomfortable cos I'm not used to it). After they got me to change,

they said that if I pass this casting, I'll have to wear a swimsuit (which definitely

is not comfortable for me). I wasn't told, cos I thought my definition of

beach wear would pass. Damn embarrassed already, so we left. Such a waste

of my time. If I really got that job, I could've earned myself $1K for

10 hours worth of shoot. Gahhh it's okay, there'll be other better decent

opportunities for me in the future insya-allah.

Had lunch at Nando's @ Bugis Junction. Yumzxzzz. But I kinda feel

that Malaysia's one has more choices and it's better. After which, window

shopped (at first) at Bugis Street. I was already broke like hell. But it

seems like when you're broke, suddenly all the clothes and shoes are so

nice unlike when you have the money. I can't resist the temptation till I

called Dad and asked him to transfer 60bucks. And guess how much he

actually gave me. A hundred :O All the more I feel like buying more stuff, but nah.

Goodnight everyone (:

2011-12-26T23:43:00.000+08:00

Kite flying with Dinni, Ziyad and Sue @ Marina Barrage. The wind

was really strong, perfect to fly a kite. After which, we had our dinner at Lau Pa Sat.

Headed back to CCK after that to chill for awhile before I make my way home.

Goodnight everyone (:

2011-12-25T23:54:00.000+08:00

Out with parents to JP for awhile in the afternoon. Mum needs my help in

choosing a new pair of glasses for her. I went off after that while

they stayed. Met Dinni and we went to catch Sherlock Holmes 2

@ Causeway Point. Awesome movie, just like the first one.

Goodnight everyone and Merry Christmas! (:

2011-12-23T23:58:00.001+08:00

FINALLY MY FIRST TRIP TO UNIVERSAL STUDIOS SINGAPORE!

Uh huh finally it happens. Been waiting for over more than a year,

yes finally! Hehehehe happy girl. After a few weeks of postponing our trip

to USS, Dinni and I finally went today. It was one awesome day I swear to

god. It could've been better if it wasn't raining, but nevertheless I really had fun.

Lucky we manage to take the Battlestar Galactica ride before it starts to pour.

Didn't manage to take all the rides there, but my most favourite one is the

Transformers ride! Worth the long waiting time. It was really great. Had our

dinner at Harbourfront bus interchange before heading home.

To end this off, thanks to this boy for today. Really. Was really

touched seeing his determination in wanting to bring me to USS cos

he knows how badly I wanna go. Plus he wants to be the first person to

bring me there. You deserve the ~~Best Grandpa~~ Sweetheart Award (:

2011-12-22T23:54:00.003+08:00

This time last year, everything was different. Could've been our

2nd anniversary today. Yea could have been. I must say that I'm really a

relationship jinx. Most of my relationships always end before 2 years.

Oh well, life goes on.

Thought I'd be at Woodlands Waterfront tonight by myself but I guess

being with my friends is much better than to dwell on some bullshit past.

2011-12-20T22:51:00.002+08:00

Slack Tuesday.

Out with the guys to Ikea. Dicky bought some stuff for his room.

After which, had our dinner @ ABC Brickworks Food Centre.

Yumzxzzzz Maggi goreng :D

Back to CCK and chill out for awhile before heading home.

Goodnight everyone (:

2011-12-17T23:58:00.000+08:00

Initial plan was to go USS today. Was pretty excited about it since it's

gonna be my first time and I have been waiting forever to go there. But

the boy doesn't seem that well when I met him, so I insist that we go

another day. We watched Mission Impossible: Ghost Protocol at Marina

Square instead. It was weird to be there so early at noon. Went to town

to meet his friends for awhile after movie, and headed back to CCK to meet the rest.

Ordered Canadian Pizza with the HQ guys. Yumzxzzzz!

Alright goodnight (:

2011-12-16T23:51:00.002+08:00

Breakfast with Dinni at KFC and chill out together till night. Met Shahied

and Aqilah and we headed to Coffee Bean for Dicky's birthday surprise.

Unfortunately, things didn't go according to our plan. Else, it

could've been a perfect surprise.

Good day nevertheless. Goodnight everyone (:

2011-12-14T23:41:00.000+08:00

FUCKYEAH HOLIDAYS ALREADY!

But, it's only for 2 weeks. Sigh definitely not enough.

I gotta admit that this term is not as busy compared to other terms.

No exams/tests and we only have 2 project submissions.

Adding to my excitement is a really good news from Dinni. He's gonna bookout

tmr instead of Friday. And the same goes for the following 2 weeks. Awesome,

we got one more day to spend together ^^

2011-12-13T23:54:00.002+08:00

Whoooop Happy 19th Birthday Dicky!

Didn't had a surprise bash or whatever this year since everyone is

kinda busy and me too, busy with sch projects. So we just chill

out at hall at night and coincidentally a delivery guy from Domino's

was sending an order at hall, and he's a friend. He gave birthday boy

this card where we can get free pizza when we ordered one. So we did.

Yumzxzzz Domino's Pizza!

Alright goodnight everyone.

Tomorrow's my last day of sch before term break :D

2011-12-11T22:28:00.002+08:00

Woke up as early as 7am on a Sunday morning to bake. Got an order

for brownies and cupcakes. I love that sense of accomplishment after

I'm done baking. Sense of satisfaction.

This, is specially for Dinni. I remembered in one of our conversations, he

jokingly asked for a cupcake with icing and cherry on top. Since then I have been

searching for cherries everytime I went to the supermarket. But sadly it's

very hard to find. Until recently, Dad found it and bought them. So beautiful ^^

2011-12-10T23:54:00.003+08:00

This boy is amazing. He knows it has been some time since I last went

for a picnic, and so we planned on going for one today at Keppel Bay. He

was more excited about it more than I am to the extend that he wants to

find a picnic basket. How cute is that, you tell me! And he brought a picnic mat,

even though we're gg there by public. I mean, it was sweet of him cos he took

the initiative to bring the mat and is not ashamed of it. Picnic for two,

but the amount of food we bought was like picnic for one whole family. Now

I know why he said it'll be good if he get to use the car today. The food we're

carrying plus the mat, and how far we have to walk to get to Keppel Bay. But

nevertheless it was a great day. We even manage to see the beautiful fireworks (:

That talk we had, I was really speechless. Surprised to know we have

actually known each other for 1-2 months plus, and surprised how do we

actually end up this way. We are neither in a relationship, nor are we just friends.

But I really like what we are now. I was touched when you said I was special,

and you want to make me happy. I teared a little when I see how determined

you are in wanting to bring me to USS, bcos you know how badly I wanna go there :')

2011-12-06T22:14:00.000+08:00

Yo yo yo what uppppppp.

Hehehe so I was surprised to see my niece when I got back from

sch earlier today. Missed her. For the first time, I actually trimmed a

small girl's fringe. All these while, I've been cutting my Mum's hair.

Was afraid to cut my niece's fringe at first, but it turns out fine. Sis-is-law

asked me to trim her hair as well but I was scared. That one really

cannot. Plus, she looks good with her hair now! You know I've always

wanted a younger sister so I can dress her up and play with

her hair. Well since I don't have one, my niece is my victim.

I manage to tie her hair in different styles :D

Alright goodnight everyone (:

2011-12-05T13:55:00.002+08:00

My splendid weekend with Dinni and the rest of the guys. All out from

Friday till Sunday. It was nice to spend time with them and experience

what their routine is like in the middle of the night. Parents coming back

from Malaysia tonight, and I skipped class today. Was really damn tired and

I need to sleep so bad. Anyways I just discovered that playing ping pong can

make me feel energized and hyper :O

And this photo is taken by Sufi, which he claims for

memories' sake. HAHAHA cos this is the only time I'm able to chill out with

them till morning without worrying about curfew or whatsoever.

2011-11-29T20:35:00.002+08:00

(Source: Tumblr)

2011-11-27T20:11:00.002+08:00

Impromptu plan of watching Puss In Boots with Dinni earlier on.

Funny and cute movie! Bought some food at pasar malam and chill

out at hall with a few others. Stayed for awhile only since he has to book

in early. Sighhhhhhhh. 2 minggu punya rindu belum lagi lepas, dah nak kena

masuk balik. It was worth the time with you, really. Even though it was just for a while.

2011-11-26T23:54:00.000+08:00

I don't know what's up with her, suddenly she's so hyper and started to sing her heart out.Very cute though.

2011-11-26T23:34:00.000+08:00

Out with the family to town today. It has been a long time since I last

went out with my family. So I finally went to H&M since I received a gift card

from TPS yesterday. I must say that they have quite a variety of clothes.

The queue to get into the fitting rooms were freaking long, so I decided to

get some tops which I can just try it over that kind. The best thing when

you're out with your parents? You shop, they pay. HEHEHEHE.

After which, we headed to Carousel @ Royal Plaza on Scotts for dinner

in celebration of my niece's birthday. She turned 2 two days ago. My first

time there. The food was great, the desserts especially. After stuffing our

tummy with food, we dropped by ION for another round of shopping. Was

actually searching for a new Apple earpiece but sadly there's no more stock.

Sigh. But I'm happy I get a new top for myself from New Look ^^

Happy 2nd Birthday, Nazeefa Zafeerah ♥

2011-11-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

Finally, it's Friday. See how fast time actually flies. After class, went to

CCK to meet the HQ people. We already planned to fetch Dinni from Pasir Ris

since he's booking out at 9pm. We were waiting for the rest to come down

before making a move, plus we're waiting for car. While we were waiting,

Dinni called saying his parents were fetching him soooooo thank god we

haven't made a move yet. So we just chill out and wait for the boy to come.

He looked so weird with the botak head. Hahahaha oh well, gotta get used to it.

Happy to see him even though it was just for a short while (:

2011-11-24T23:10:00.002+08:00

GUESS WHAT GUESS WHATTTTTTTT, the boy gets to book out tomorrow!

Though he'll be booking out at night, it's such a huge relief to know he doesn't

need to stay in. Thank you god, thank you so much. I was really looking

forward to a piece of good news tonight.

2011-11-24T20:22:00.001+08:00

2011-11-22T23:53:00.000+08:00

This is so heartbreaking.

Just got off the phone with someone and sadly he can't book out this

Friday like everyone else bcos he got caught for bringing phone charger

and a camera phone. Thus he needs to go through confinement or smtg

like that. SO FREAKING SAD I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY AND HOW TO

HOLD BACK THE TEARS. I know he's equally sad and I can hear by the

tone of his voice. I don't know how to comfort him but I tried. We laughed

and we joked, but I think we both know we had tears in our eyes. It's just

two more days to go, and this had to happen.

Well, things happened for a reason, right?

2011-11-21T00:02:00.002+08:00

I miss you so much.

4 more days to your first bookout.

Promise to take more instax photos before your first book in so you will have

more photos of us to look at while you're in camp.

2011-11-20T23:13:00.002+08:00

As usual, Eldest Brother and family came over during weekends.

Zeefa being so cute with her newly bought Spongebob bagpack for

sch next year, and she played around with Mum's shawl around the house.

Great Sunday to stay in since it's raining.

2011-11-18T23:01:00.001+08:00

Such a burden Friday I swear. I've been bringing just a small bag ever

since sch starts. Today, I need to bring one huge bag with formal attire,

formal shoes and portfolio in it. And all that burden for a stupid 10mins

interview for Communication Skills. Thank god I borrowed a friend's laptop,

so I don't have to bring mine.

Went back to CCK and chill out with the guys. And as you can see from

the photo above, Dicky the mak andam in training putting on lipstick for me.

HAHAHAHA. After that, went to chill out with the HQ guys for awhile before

heading home. Great Friday spent. Goodnight all (:

2011-11-17T18:58:00.000+08:00

So errr actually, I kinda like my hair now. I gotta get used to the length though.

It's annoying cos I can't twirl my hair to the side or tie a decent hair bun.

But it's okay, hair will grow right. I promise not to do anything to my hair

till it reaches my waist. Uh huh promise.

2011-11-16T23:51:00.000+08:00

Sighhh feeling kinda heartbroken that my hair is short(er) now.

No more purple dip dye :(

Went to Toni & Guy @ Holland Village after sch with Shahied to

meet Naseera, since she needs a model for hair treatment or smtg.

Everything went well till she had to blow dry my hair. My hair really

cannot make it already. Bcos I bleached the tip of my hair and it keeps

getting tangled and it's hard for her to comb through. The other hairdressers

even take turns to try blow dry my hair but all like gave up.

So end up, the trainer trimmed off the tip of my hair which was being bleached.

So freaking sad with the length of my hair now :(

2011-11-15T23:46:00.002+08:00

Met the guys at town after sch since Dicky wanna shop for some stuff. Had

our dinner at Subway before playing LAN. Played this new game for the

first time and I got dizzy and threw up halfway. Damn I think I've got

problem with playing new games for the first time :S

Great day overall.

Goodnight everyone (:

2011-11-14T18:53:00.003+08:00

I may be single right now, but that doesn't give me the reason to go out

with thousands of different guys. Yes, people say keep your options open.

But I'm the type of person that even though I'm not in a relationship with

someone (yet), and I'm seeing someone in particular, I will still be sort of

faithful to him. Sounds dumb of me aye? I don't think so. I wouldn't want the

person I'm dating to be going out with some other girls. Though he has every

rights to cos I'm not his girlfriend and I have no rights to be jealous or

whatsoever. But still......... It's just not nice to be kinda playing with

someone's feelings. Well that's just what I thought.

And one more thing I don't understand, is when people keep track on how

long they have been single. Rough numbers is okay, but like "I've been

single for 5 months 2 weeks sigh". Fuck la single can die meh. Okay not die,

but feel lonely. That's undeniable.

2011-11-12T22:30:00.000+08:00

Finally get to see my lovely niece. One smart girl.

Thank god she's no longer a crybaby.

Ignore my face, look at how cute her smile is!

Urgh can't get enough of her. Missed her so much.

And just to share with all of you the first few words my niece

has learned to speak, video below.

2011-11-11T23:17:00.000+08:00

One lonely Friday I swear to god. "Bestfriend" didn't came for first class in

the morning, watched The Maid in class alone. Okay not really alone cos I

was sitting next to my friend who happened to hate horror movies, hahaha.

Class ended early so I end up having lunch alone. Smoke alone, lepak alone

for an hour plus till the next class. Went back to CCK expecting anyone who

wanna chill out. End up meeting the guys and played Team Fortress.

But seriously, I felt exceptionally lonely today idk why. On a brighter note,

exactly two more weeks till Dinni's first bookout. Can't wait to meet that boy.

Goodnight.

2011-11-10T23:09:00.000+08:00

Home early today. Decided to pumprock since it has been so freaking long

since I last skated. Followed by a short jog. Great evening. Anyways, I just

realized that my time-table is actually quite relax. Good news, no sch on Thursdays! :D

I'm glad to hear someone's doing fine over at Tekong.

Good to know that he has made new friends.

Goodnight everyone (:

2011-11-09T22:21:00.004+08:00

It has been a freaking long time since I last woke up to a freaking long,

meaningful, sweet text. I got one from someone this morning and it really

made me smile with tears in my eyes :')

I didn't had a proper good sleep last night, I don't know why. I keep waking

up every now and then. I'm sad but yet happy for you at the same time knowing that

you had gone to serve the nation today. I know I've only known you for a few weeks

now, but I really had a great time with you and your friends in that few weeks.

I like you even more with each passing day, but like you said, is it love? I

don't know myself. I'm just looking forward to see you again in 2 weeks time,

and hopefully I'm able to fetch you on your first bookout. One thing I'm glad for

schooling at TP and you're at Tekong, and my class ends at 5 on Fridays. Sweeeeeee!

"I'll miss the lips that made me fly."

2011-11-08T23:52:00.000+08:00

First things first, Happy 19th Birthday Shahied!

Birthday bash plan went.... Err..... Well, but kinda fail.

Sorry Shahied for the injuries and we bashed you on your newly

bought shirt. We all played Team Fortress after that. We just started playing that,

and I must say it was kinda fun.

I had to leave after the first round of the game, to meet Dinni and

his friends since it's his last day before he go for NS tomorrow :(

But it was a great simple night nevertheless.

2011-11-07T23:37:00.000+08:00

Met Dinni and went to Syafizah's crib to watch The Covenant. Chilled out

at CCK with the rest for awhile and had our dinner at Woodlands area.

Yumzxzzz the food was nice. Headed back to CCK and chill out for

awhile before going home. Great night with laughters.

2011-11-06T22:34:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha!

I must say that I wasn't in the mood for this today.

But at least we're home early.

2011-11-05T21:33:00.000+08:00

What a boring Saturday.

2011-11-04T23:20:00.003+08:00

I haven't been to school for the past three days now. Down with flu

and cough, and I swear it sucks. Only manage to take MC today since I

can't afford to miss CMSK lesson. Someone accompanied me to the polyclinic,

which I find it very sweet. Yes my friends had accompanied me to take

MC before, but this is different. He willingly woke up early in the morning,

despite the fact that he haven't had enough sleep. So we had breakfast at MacD

before that. Finally satisfied my cravings for MacD breakfast. Surprisingly

it doesn't took much of our time at the polyclinic. Chilled at Irfan's crib

with the rest after the guys are done with Friday prayers.

Anyways, have anyone tried this new Hershey's chocolate? It's damn nice!

Well it's just a cute small metal box with a few pieces of creamy

milk chocolates in it. And it's kinda addictive too, hehehe.

2011-11-03T23:07:00.000+08:00

You made me smile, you made me laugh, you made me forget all the pain caused

by someone else. I like the way you held me close everytime you’re sitting next to me.

I like the way you put your hand around my waist. I like the way you held my hand.

I like the way you hug me from the back. I like the way you put your hand over my shoulder.

I like the way you kiss my forehead. I like the way you smell my hair. I like it when you

call me your girl. But…. You’re not mine, and I’m not yours. This thing we’re having is

not defined. I don’t know what to call it. I don’t know what to answer to people whenever

they asked me if you’re my new boyfriend, cos you’re not. But, I really like whatever

we’re having now. Maybe we don’t have to define this relationship, as long we know our

feelings towards each other. I’m not prepared to take another risk being

in a relationship. At least not so soon.

2011-10-30T11:50:00.000+08:00

A great Sunday spent with Dinni. Beautiful sunset @ Keppel Bay,

peaceful and quiet night. Worth sitting on the grass (though it made our pants wet),

counting stars with the crescent moon in the sky.

2011-10-28T23:49:00.000+08:00

For the past few relationships I have been in, I had been cheated on,

had been dumped, and now what? Silent break-up this time round?

Fuck all this shit seriously. I'm confused with everything. We're not talking,

but yet I wanna know who am I to you and if I ever meant anything to you for the

past almost 2 years of being together. I tried to break the ice by texting you first. Just

so you know, I put aside my ego and tried to make things better between us or

maybe figure this shit that's going on. But it seems like you still wanna ignore me so be it.

I shall take it like it's over between us.

2011-10-26T23:05:00.000+08:00

How good it is to have a public holiday two days after your school reopens.

Hehehe. So I decided to bake some mini nutella brownie cupcakes since I

was bored and I found a huge bottle of Nutella in the kitchen. Went out to

Lot 1 to have lunch with Dinni and chilled out with the rest till night.

2011-10-25T23:48:00.000+08:00

Time alone tonight at my favourite place. Lucky it doesn't rain while I was

there. The past few weeks has been hell. Not entirely hell, bcos I'm actually

happy with the people around me. Been hanging out with new group of people

since I'm bored at home and my friends are busy working/schooling. I just

needed to sort my thinking. I never expect any of this to happen. I never expect

to be in a really bad fight with you till we didn't speak to each other for almost

2 weeks now. I feel like this is the last straw. I've always been giving in to you

and your mistakes. Even though you're the one at fault, you're always good at

turning things around and made it seem like I'm the one to be blamed.

Enough of this bullshit already, seriously.

2011-10-24T22:44:00.001+08:00

First day of school was........ Great!

Wanna know why? Firstly, class starts at 1pm.

Secondly, class ended wayyyy earlier than expected.

So I kinda actually wasted my trip to sch, but it's okay.

2011-10-23T23:50:00.000+08:00

First things first, today is the last day of my school holidays. Back to reality

tomorrow, after 2 months of good long break :(

But I did enjoy my last day of holidays. Was out to town with Dinni to catch

One Day. The movie was great. After which, we head over to Ion. Dropped

by a few shops and tried on some apparels. Went to meet the rest at Woodlands,

and back to CCK to chill out for awhile before heading home. Never expect I'd end

my holidays on a very good note. Goodnight for now.

Thank god class starts at 1pm tmr!

2011-10-22T23:56:00.000+08:00

After so long of not seeing my lovely niece. I feel like she has grown up so fast.

She's really hyperactive now. Love watching her dance along to Hi-5 (:

2011-10-22T23:08:00.001+08:00

Because things are more harder and messy than it seems.

And I have a feeling that all these are temporary.

2011-10-21T23:48:00.001+08:00

Had lunch with Dinni at Naked Fish Express @ BPP. Damn I miss their fries.

Yumzxzzz. After which, met the rest and chilled out for awhile before gg to

Jurong Point cos the guys have yet to have their lunch. Back to CCK and chilled

out again while they decide on where to go. So they settled on Punggol End.

The place is totally different now. Or maybe we're at another side of it.

The guys had their dinner/supper @ Popeye's. Sadly I didn't get the chance to walk

around and explore the place, since I have to get home already. It's okay,

there's always another time. Good night!

2011-10-20T23:22:00.000+08:00

I'm torn apart. I don't know what's happening between us. I wonder how

have you been, for I haven't heard from you for the past one week.

One week.

Guess I didn't mean anything to you. Leave me hanging by a thread, is that

something you enjoy? On the other hand, I've been living my days quite well

even though I'm going through shit. I'm happy with my friends, I'm happy with

the people around me. I appreciate those who were there for me when I needed

someone. Honest to say, if you don't want me in your life, I don't want you in

mine either. It hurts, but I'm tired of feeling like I'm clapping with one hand.

I deserve better than this.

2011-10-19T23:01:00.001+08:00

Cupcakes order by Leen!

Extras of the cupcakes, with white + blue icing swirls,

topped with Oreo cookies and chocolate bits.

2011-10-16T19:53:00.002+08:00

It has been 3 days since I last heard from you. I'm washing my hands off things.

I chose to be happy even when you're not around cos I know I deserve better than this.

I want you to be with me not only during good times, but also bad times. Looks like you can't

do it during bad times. I'm hoping you would change, but your ego is over your head.

2011-10-16T19:32:00.003+08:00

(Photo credit- Tumblr)

Was out with Dinni and friends yesterday to Cikgu Latiffah's daughter's

birthday chalet at Downtown East. I'm surprised Cikgu still remembers me!

And the world is getting smaller and smaller I swear. The guys actually

know my brother. I didn't even know they were KFC riders too. My brother was

the one who always meet them and pass their pay. And they didn't know that I'm

his younger sister. Haha surprising, epic reaction and mindfucked. Initial plan

was to go to USS after the chalet but it was rather late by then so we decided

to go to Tampines Eco Park instead. We didn't know where is the place exactly

and we actually got lost. End up chilling at Sun Plaza Park before heading home.

Apparently the Eco Park has no lights. That explains why the place is so dark

at night, and we thought the place is closed or smtg.

2011-10-13T20:15:00.002+08:00

THIS.

2011-10-13T19:35:00.002+08:00

No relationships are perfect. It has their own ups and downs. Some said that I

deserve better, some said I'm stupid for still holding on, some asked me to stay

strong and keep fighting. Just in case you're wondering, no it's not a huge issue.

It's just a normal tiff we had at times. Those who are curious and asked why do I

even bother to stay in a relationship which is not happy. You are damn wrong. Are

you trying to say that my relationship has been an unhappy one all along? No. We

have our happy moments, and of course our bad moments. I'm just disappointed

cos my life has been a mess the past few days and no one was there for me.

But I'm used to being independent. And if some of you think that gg out

with a guy and hanging out together with him and his friends is

considered cheating, you guys should jump down a building or smtg.

2011-10-12T23:58:00.000+08:00

I miss my purple dip dye :( And I miss my red violet hair colour :(

Shall go for a hair colour treatment soon before sch reopens. Hopefully I'll

get the colour back. Anyway, went to catch Real Steel with Dinni earlier today.

The movie was great! You all should watch, cos it's very cool I swear.

Had dinner at Food Culture and chill out with the rest after that.

2011-10-12T23:41:00.000+08:00

Received an e-mail from TPS earlier today about the photos I've taken during

casting last weekend. So yeah, there you go a sneak peek of it. The photos are being

watermarked so I can't "steal" them, haha. I looked so chubby in the photos, urghhh!

2011-10-10T21:15:00.002+08:00

Wasn't in the mood the past few days. Fucked up home, fucked up life. So I

decided to bake something new today to cheer myself up. Baked peanut butter

cupcakes with chocolate cream topping. It turns out perfect!

Loving the chocolate cream topping :D

2011-10-09T22:58:00.002+08:00

Went for casting at The People Studio today. Finally went for one, after so

many times of canceling and cannot-make-it thing. They took a few of my

portfolio photos and I must say that I look damn awkward in them! So stiff taking

photos at studio, plus I don't know the photographer. Different, it's just different.

But anyway, it's a great experience. I just hope they'll put up the nicer

photos up on their web *fingers crossed*.

Had early dinner with Shahiran after that at Tekka. Afterwhich, we dropped

by Sim Lim Square. So sad I can't find a cheap crystal case and keyguard for

my Mac. When I don't wanna buy, I saw alot of them on display. Sigh.

Btw I was home early today, surprisingly. Well goodnight! (:

2011-10-08T23:57:00.002+08:00

Baked some mini Nutella brownie cupcakes earlier today out of boredom!

Thought of trying to make macarons again, but I'm afraid it won't turn out well.

Anyways, this recipe above is damn easy and quick to make! Only 4 ingredients

used, and it's the ones that can be found in your kitchen kinda thing. People say

sharing is caring, so in case you guys wanna try baking some, here is the recipe!

Ingredients

1/2 cup Nutella spread
1 large egg
5 tablespoons all=purpose flour
1/2 cup chopped hazelnuts

Instructions

Heat the oven to 350 degrees. Line a 12-cup mini muffin pan with paper or foil liners.
Put the Nutella and egg in a medium bowl and whisk until smooth and well blended. Add the flour and whisk until blended.
Spoon the batter into the prepared muffin tins (about 3/4 full) and sprinkle with the chopped hazelnuts.
Bake until a pick comes out with wet, gooey crumbs, 11 to 12 minutes. Set on a rack to cool completely. Serve immediately or cover and store at room temperature for up to 3 days.

2011-10-08T11:32:00.002+08:00

As promised, here are the only two videos I manage to take during

ATL concert. Reason being was these two are the only slow songs where

everyone else is calm and not jumping around unlike other songs they played.

And also, these are my two favourite songs from ATL! :D

Therapy- my most favourite song. I swear this is one therapeutic song.

The part where Alex sang "I'm a rolling, fucking stone" instantly made me smile (:

2011-10-07T15:54:00.002+08:00

What uppppp! Last night was one hell of a night because of.....

All Time Low!

Finally they're here in Singapore for the first time ever and I'm proud to be

able to see them! Was really stoked to see them I swear. The only thing that was

disappointing was the weather. The concert was held at Wavehouse Sentosa,

and it was a rain or shine event. It was raining heavily the moment we're

allowed to go in and we have to stand under the rain waiting for hours for the

show to start. Dirt Radicals, the opening band, was an hour late to perform.

Pretty much fucked up. But thank god the rain stopped when ATL is up. I got

separated from the guys the second ATL started performing, but that didn't

stopped me from enjoying the concert. It was one awesome show, worth the

waiting and standing under the rain.

Ahhh Alex Gaskarth ♥♥♥

He looks so much hotter when he sweats, oh god.

That's all for today. Will upload the videos in the next post!

2011-10-05T23:15:00.002+08:00

Another day at the bridal shop for bridal make-up. Loving the fact that we did

make-up only so far, for the past few weeks.

2011-10-03T20:10:00.003+08:00

Yay look what I've got earlier today! Finally received my Union Jack creepers.

Luckily I'm able to fit into it cos the biggest size is 39 when I'm actually

a 40 (yea I know I've got huge feet). Well I'm totally loving it! A unique piece indeed.

But I gotta admit that this shoe is goddamn huge and chunky.

2011-10-03T18:03:00.001+08:00

I was so upset when I washed my hair yesterday and my dip dye has

faded into a very pale pink/beige colour. The first 2 days of my purple dip dye

was good and I love it. Plus, it's not even a month and my red violet hair colour

has faded to brown. What is thisssss. Red shade of hair dye is always hard to

maintain I swear. It always end up fading to brown eventually.

2011-10-02T22:47:00.002+08:00

Look at how gorgeous these french macarons are! Lovely aren't they? So I had

the sudden thought of trying to bake some macarons. Yes it's macarons and not

macaroons, cos they are different. I did alot of research and watched a few videos

on how to make it. It looks really simple and the ingredients used are like confirm

have in the kitchen kinda thing. So I go ahead and give it a try..........

First batch. Very ugly with all the circles end up joining together cos I guess the

batter is too watery. HAHAHA idk whether to laugh or cry upon seeing the results.

Second batch. Looks decent, but the top shell has cracks when it's supposed

to be smooth. And all of them were flat! It was supposed to have some kind

of a "feet" but nope, can't see that in mine. Worst part of all is that I can't take

out the macarons off the parchment paper. So everything goes into the bin. Wasted,

but I've learnt that something that looks so easy, is not really easy until you've

tried doing them. Anyway, I won't give up so soon. Will try to research on what

couldn't gone wrong and I'd love to try making them again until I got the

perfect french macarons. Good day everyone! (:

2011-10-02T12:42:00.002+08:00

Finally satisfied my cravings for the new MacD breakfast! The turkey bacon was

awesome I swear I love it. Funny story- my brother and I actually placed an

advanced order for this. We ordered at 2am last night and chose for it to

be delivered at 11am. Smart asses.

2011-09-30T23:29:00.002+08:00

Baked Oreo Cheesecake earlier today! My most favourite one cos it's easy to bake.

I actually experimented a new way to decorate the cake, instead of just the normal

typical Oreo crumbs on top. There are still Oreo crumbs on top, but I added

drizzles of dark chocolate and a few coloured peanut chocolates.

Can't wait to experiment more! :D

2011-09-29T23:18:00.000+08:00

Remember I mentioned about dip dying my hair a few weeks back when I

just got my hair a red violet colour? Well I just went for it, and it was purely on

impulse! My intention was just to survey about the price, but end up doing it.

Felt guilty for a moment cos I'm actually the last customer when the shop is supposed

to be closing already. Nevertheless, I'm loving the colour! My most favourite, purple.

Though I'm so sad and feel like my heart is broken into a thousand pieces when the

ends of my hair is so dry after they washed and blow dry it. But they said it's normal

and expected for it to be dry due to bleaching :/ Hope it goes back to normal

after a few weeks and a few hair treatments.

2011-09-28T23:54:00.001+08:00

Went for bridal make-up today. Been some time since I last went for it.

Glad we only did make-up and no hairdo.

2011-09-27T23:55:00.002+08:00

Out with Dicky and Shahied to town to do some shopping. Sadly I didn't bought

anything today. After which, we had our dinner at Zam Zam Restaurant. Followed

by an impromptu shisha after a few of the rest came down to join us.

That's all for today, nights everyone!

2011-09-25T23:20:00.001+08:00

Yay we finally manage to find our way to Sengkang Riverside Park! I really

hate taking LRT cos it's freaking confusing. That was what causes us to lose our

way while trying to get to the park the other day. The place was nice and peaceful.

Headed to Strictly Pancakes after that to have our dinner. Or rather, desserts.

Our first time trying.

Our drinks: Chocolate Peanut Butter shake and Nutella shake.

What-A-Spread! Basically it is three pancakes sandwiched with Nutella in

between, peanut butter sauce on top and served with vanilla ice-cream

and Kinder Bueno.

The Druggie! If you're truly a chocolate lover, doesn't mean you can finish up this

whole plate of good looking food by yourself! I admit, it was really nice and taste

like heaven when I first bite into it. After a few bites, I kinda got sick of it. Too

much chocolate! And psstttt... My drink is also chocolate flavour! The Druggie

consist of three chocolate pancakes, drizzled with their home-made

chocolate sauce, sprinkled with a few chocolate flakes and

served with chocolate ice-cream. Drooling now? Haha.

So this is how happy I was when my food arrives, eager-to-dig-in face. After a

few bites, that's my face. See it's only half eaten. So so wasted! Lucky there was

plain water, cos I was really feeling so sick of all the chocolate.

Even Shahiran can't finish up his food. At least he ate more than me, despite the

fact that he ate a burger before eating this. We really got small tummies.

Nevertheless, it was a wonderful day. Had so much fun and laughters with my

dearest boy. Today is most probably the day I've laughed so much till I teared

when I'm with him. Seriously. Alright then goodnight everyone (:

2011-09-23T23:57:00.000+08:00

Impromptu shopping with Dicky earlier today. Damn I love it. It has been a longggg

time since I last went out and shop. I mean, I always do my shopping online. Yes

lazybum is me. Happy with what I got. Now I feel like gg for another round of

shopping. But somewhere else. We spent most of our time at Uniqlo today, that

we didn't had the chance to look around at other shops. Well actually today was

supposed to be the day I thought I get to meet and go out with the best people alive,

but it turns out otherwise. Oh well, people are busy... Even when they're not working,

they have other plans in mind with other people.

2011-09-22T23:00:00.000+08:00

Dinner with Shahiran after his work at Botak's Favourites. Finally satisfied my

cravings for steak! This time I tried the Rosemary Lamb Chops. Not bad, but I

really love their ribeye steak I had during Ramadhan. Yumzxzzzz.

2011-09-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

Out with Dinni and his friends to Ikea Tampines. Funny bunch of people.

Anyway it has been some time since I last went to East side. Well ever since

school holidays started that is.

2011-09-19T19:02:00.000+08:00

Loving my new hair colour! Yesssss finally my dream coloured hair. At this point of

time, it's still dark. Can't wait for it to get brighter after a few washes. Before

sch reopens, I'm gonna dip dye the tip of my hair ^^

2011-09-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

Our second Raya together ♥

2011-09-18T23:49:00.001+08:00

Out with Shahiran with a few of his workmates for Raya visiting. Thank god we

travelled by van. It was really fun, even though it was tiring towards the end of the day.

Tired face. Shahiran sent me home despite the fact that the last house we

went was at Woodlands. But at least he didn't missed the last train back home,

so it was okay. Thanks for the day (:

2011-09-17T23:04:00.002+08:00

Stay home Saturday. Baked brownies. Experimented something new.

Check out my sweet treats site soon for the new brownies addition! :D

2011-09-16T22:55:00.003+08:00

So freaking happy cos I passed all my modules for this semester! Woke up in time for the release of the results but I took my own sweet time to check it. Thank god. Even though my grades are not that good, at least there's a slight increase in my GPA. I'm just relieved I can enjoy the rest of my holidays in peace, with no worries about studying for supp paper. Which feels kinda odd, cos I always take supp paper every semester. Haha oh well.